Injustice abounds, how do you respond?

Lately I've been having some conflict with Alexandra about how Sebastian gets a pooh spoon for Breakfast and she doesn't. She's even used the words, it's not fair! I've been really irritated with this because it usually happens at meal times when I'm already busy getting everyone something to drink and eat. I was resting this afternoon and had a huge revelation....She's just like me. Now, I don't complain that someone got a pooh spoon and I didn't. Oh, no mine are much more important. This person gets away with lying, that person gets something that I deserved (like a raise or a promotion). I can remember when I was working I was all over the office politics and how unfair so much was. Boy when I look back at that it was ugly. Just as ugly as Alexandra's need to pout about the injustice at meals. I keep telling her to be thankful that she has food to eat and milk to drink and that she has a spoon to use to eat with. I guess I need to start doing some self talk of my own when I see injustice. If you see me walking around talking to myself just know I'm not going crazy!

Relationships are the best and the saddest part of life

I'm a social gal. I like people and It charges me most of the time to be around people. I like to host people over at my house. I tend to invest a lot of time and effort into relationships. That means that when I get hurt in relationships or if a relationship gets broken it tends to break me. I've only had a few serious broken relationships. I guess part of the reason this is so hard for me is that I care and I believe I played some part in the brokenness. I have felt God pull me through these broken relationships if I allow him and I can move on until I run into a person that I have a broken relationship with. That happened this week. I care about this person and wanted to know how things were. It was a short conversation and I was hurt once it stopped. I wasn't hurt because of the way the person acted but was sad that I won't have a relationship with that person again. This makes me thankful for the relationships I have and helps me to push through the hurt of the lost ones that more than likely won't be restored. God made us to need each other and that means hurt comes along with it, like it or not. It's just the way it is.

The Short fuse

After getting my hair cut today I ran to the store, without the children to get a few things for our 24 party tomorrow night! I kept passing by this dad with two kids, one boy who was about 5 and a girl who was probably 2 1/2 or 3. Everytime I saw him he was barking commands at them or sighing with frustration. At first I felt bad for the kids, but then some of the words that came out of his mouth had also come out of mine in the past. A lot of what the kids were doing were just being kids. They weren't moving fast enough for him or were distracted by something or wanted to stop and look at something that caught their eye. I thought, how many times have I barked at the kids out of frustration just because they were being kids. A lot let me tell you. I'm going to choose to deal with them differently and ask God to show me when my expectations are too high for them.

A sunset from God

Yesterday as I was driving around getting a few things and the prescription for Atticus I noticed a beautiful sunset in the sky. It seemed to me that God planned it just for that night. I needed to see something beautiful on a day when it seemed so much had gone wrong. It was pink and red with clouds. It was awesome. And it was a great reminder to me that God is in control!

God reveals when I least expect it

I went out last night to the store to pick up a few things and drove through an apartment complex as a short cut to get home. I remembered that about 4 years ago when I was working full time at WaYfm I worked with a guy that I didn't treat very well. I didn't treat him well because I was so afraid of losing some of my "power" at the station. He wasn't my boss but I had to work closely with him a lot. As I drove through that apartment complex it made me think of him and the fact that he and his family use to live there. We even went to their apartment to watch a survivor finale, when I was still watching survivor. One thing I realized is that I put my position, my power over his value as a person. I was really immature with him and I cringed to think about the way I acted. I also realized that I've changed. I don't think I would do that again. I now value people over an position or job. Even though I regret the way I acted back then I'm thankful that God revealed that to me and that I have changed and hopefully won't do that again.